snap dragon

i drank almost an entire bottle of wine last night. in 2 hours. when i say almost, i mean there's less than half a glass left in the bottle. nathan came home and we had an honest conversation i didn't want to have. there were many tears. i booked a flight to tennessee to see a friend. i'm going the last weekend in may. i can't wait. at this point i feel like i could run there. don't need an airplane.

all we need is love is a lie.
cause we had love but we still said goodbye.
-john mayer

ring day

i've lost control of my emotions. i'm all over the map.

nathan gets his aggie ring tomorrow. (for those of you not familiar with texas a&m, this is a HUGE deal)

i'm happy for him and proud of him, but it just reminds me how stagnant i am in my dreams, goals, and life.

i bought 2 bottles of wine to get me through this weekend.

keep up

hello. read my other blog. then bring me a bottle of wine.

seriously.

smooth red, please.

seriously.

wine

so my parents are coming down tomorrow. just to take the boys to the park. incredible? YES.

i'm getting off the wellbutrin and making an appointment with a psychiatrist.

i went out with someone i admire and had the best time i've had in a LONG time. and drank half a bottle of wine. and it was just incredible. i need a friend like that. too bad they're moving in may. i think i may cry.

i'm on my second glass of wine for the night.

i worked out for 2 and a half hours today.

i think i might actually do the body step instructor thing.

i'm having doubts.