void

i got out of bed at 3pm today.

was looking forward to spending (much needed) time with a friend...until i got stood up.

my dad left this afternoon, but mom decided to stay a few days. for good reason i suppose. i'm hardly functioning. at home anyway.

i had the worst nightmare i've had in weeks last night.

i'm slowly getting down off the wellbutrin. i think my body is trying to die.

if all you see is griping, i apologize. it's a really low time for me, and it's truly all i feel. and i don't express these feelings to anyone but nathan, so they get spit out on the internet for all of you. most of who i barely know.

i just want to be happy, i just want to have a good day, i just want to have a day without tears and desperation. i want to enjoy spending time with my kids, i want to feel hope.

void. everything is void.