i got out of bed at 3pm today.
was looking forward to spending (much needed) time with a friend...until i got stood up.
my dad left this afternoon, but mom decided to stay a few days. for good reason i suppose. i'm hardly functioning. at home anyway.
i had the worst nightmare i've had in weeks last night.
i'm slowly getting down off the wellbutrin. i think my body is trying to die.
if all you see is griping, i apologize. it's a really low time for me, and it's truly all i feel. and i don't express these feelings to anyone but nathan, so they get spit out on the internet for all of you. most of who i barely know.
i just want to be happy, i just want to have a good day, i just want to have a day without tears and desperation. i want to enjoy spending time with my kids, i want to feel hope.
void. everything is void.
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The blogging/journaling probably helps a little right? I hope it does. It's good to just get it out of your system and purge a little. It's so cliche to say "lemme know if you need anything" but I'll just say, lemme know. If all you need from your friends is to read this blog and comment, letting you know we hear you, then I can totally do that for you sister. Lots of love and prayers<3
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