today was horrific. i cried 40% of the day. yelled at the kids about 20% of it. and the rest was spent in a reclusive state in the corner. i feel sorry for my kids. how do people get through this stuff? prayer? alcohol? friends? not much is helping. just bad day.
well i am praying. and screaming. and listening to music that expresses feelings in words i couldn't find. and drinking wine. (after the kids are in bed...come on.) the friends thing is lacking. only because i feel like such a bother to the ones i do have. who are nathan's friends. therefore concerned with school and school. and don't understand a weepy, emotional, female.
ever wish you could evaporate?
what i am is beautiful
about me
- hilary hope
- i love green. doodling. working out. painting. listening to music. red wine. fields. days with no clouds. sleeping in. coffee house conversations. fruit. going to the movies alone. tattoos. candles. art. oceans. natural beauty. dim lights. heavy blankets. green grass. still the same old me...just starting over. love.
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