choices

sorry about the lack in posts. not sure yet how much i'm ready to share.

it's hard to live the life you choose.

my life is great. amazing, actually. but i still battle daily with depression and anxiety. it's back to the point of contemplating medication. that's for another post. a much deeper and darker post.

my new outlook on life is this: live it. don't regret it. don't take experiences and feelings for granted. live them to the fullest. don't live for someone else. embrace this wonderful world we live in.

i hold on to that with all my might, even while the thousand ton weight of my depression sits on my shoulders. it's an exhausting process. one that i so want to write about and share, but can't quite form into words yet.

i'm an oxymoron. i'm happier than i've ever been but can't motivate myself enough to take a shower. and such is life. more to come. i'm working on it.

thank you to those few who stand by me and support, love, and encourage me. you are treasures.